tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17403683.post113354357574549127..comments2023-04-06T05:25:06.269-04:00Comments on We survived an affair: Chapter 15 - Spiritual Roller CoasterAuthorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12602583738704599705noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17403683.post-89560514615969385642007-05-09T10:37:00.000-04:002007-05-09T10:37:00.000-04:00Wow! I did the exact same thing! I was so close ...Wow! I did the exact same thing! I was so close to God and was learning more and more about him and we were so intimate! Then...the bomb hit...my husband had an affair...I turned my back on God. I told God I hated him. I told him that I didn't want to be a Christian anymore...after all...it was his fault that this happened. He could have stopped it and he didn't. I was so angry at both God and my H...that I did have an affair. It was an aweful experience...and I ask God to take away the memories and guilt I have everyday. <BR/>I have since come back to God and understand that he was not to blame...that he had everything under control and that he was (and is) always working upstream.<BR/>Thank you for your openness in posting your story.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17403683.post-21472158961342176142007-01-16T12:14:00.000-05:002007-01-16T12:14:00.000-05:00Well, one year into this "recovery" process, one t...Well, one year into this "recovery" process, one thing for sure I've learned.... Forgiveness is not a one time deal. Then done. I find myself forgiving him every time I have a trigger, bad thought, insecure feeling or low self esteem based on his bad decision. I have found that forgiveness in continual and on going and needs renewed more often than not.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com